Supposed Aimlessness

In an attempt to keep up with my average of 2 blogs per month, I present you with this short(ish)* blog. Bear with me.

My sister was with me this weekend. It seemed like all we did was talk. Sure, we roamed about Calgary in search of my new city, we ate, we drank (tea) and read. But the spaces in between were full of words. We have very few silences, my sister and I.  I am continually astonished by the fact that we never run out of things to talk about. My lips will probably fall off before I can no longer think of things to pass from my mind to her ears.**

One of the things that came up was my alleged lack of direction. Although Katimavik has given me tonnes of ideas of what want to do when I leave, but still have no lead on a legit 'career path'.
But I had an epipheny: I decided that it doesn't matter. Well, not that, exactly. I decided that was wasn't directionless, or lost.

I realized that I am hungry. For life, among other things. I'm hungry for so many things, including but not limited to: experience, excitement, love, magic. I want to do everything, to try anything, go anywhere, be whoever I can be.

Maybe that's selfish. I know that I'm insanely blessed, that my life is something out of an average fairytale, and to ask for anything else might be pushing it. But I don't care. For once, I want to be selfish. I think it's okay to want this.

Most of all, I hope I'll always be hungry. And I hope I can spend my life with someone as ravenous as I am.

*(my first footnote! Exciting!) When is anything I ever write short?
**I find it incredibly interesting when people fear that they will run out of things to say to their 'partner', just because you see each other every day. The world is an ever changing place, sparking new thoughts, new conversations, constantly creating a whole new you. I don't worry about that kind of thing so much. I'm more of a 'What if I can't say what I mean? What if I'm too afraid to do what I have to? What if I can't do what I need to to keep you?'. But that's another blog entirely.